Mary Germany (Cont…)

And God holds me forever

In the restaurant we were still about 40 people on a huge long table, and there was only one free seat next to me – although it was very late at night, suddenly a young woman came to us from the room and sat down right next to me: we understood right away and since both of us were bored, we went to fresh air and I felt I would have ever known her.

She told me that had happened to her something very strange: she had for this Saturday evening 3 opportunities for appointments and all had cancelled her – and she told me that something like this would have been never happen to her before – and so she would have only had one option: to come to the single meeting in Mainz , because she wanted to meet an old friend from Vienna, who was also with us – but actually she would not even directly come into the restaurant, because she wanted to meet her friend outside the restaurant when everything was over – but as we were sitting longer than planned inside they had just come directly to us in the restaurant.

After 2 weeks, she wrote me an email and asked me if we could go for a drink together in Mainz. I directly agreed and we went to an oriental bar – after a short time we got to the theme of Catholic faith. Entire 7 hours I hung on every word – but I must say, that was such a shock conversion … I really knew nothing at all and she told me that there are Marian apparitions, that the devil really exists and about his plans, his machinations (that he hates conversions and that he wants to win souls by using the sin) – further she told me about “the chip” (how it is written in the Revelation of St. John).

Also well she told me about her mothers’ experiences with the Pour Souls in Purgatory – I was completely shocked… because I always had been told that there is only an idyllic world – and we never get told that there really is evil or the devil – although he’s already appeared to Martin Luther and so many saints and John Paul II said: “He who does not believe in the devil, believes not in Jesus “.She drummed into me, how important it is to go to church every Sunday and to confess our sins and to respect the commandments etc.

And I’m bound to say: Since that conversation I’m going to church every Sunday – there was a great turning point in my life. Later she loaned me a book in which I read that you should pray to receive the Holy Communion worthily – I never thought about it before – by then I always was complete indifferent and superficial in receiving the Communion .. I did not even know that Jesus really is present (but not visible) at the Consecration and truly hidden in the Host

When I went to Holy Mass 1 hour later I said to Jesus for the first time in my thoughts: “Jesus – please help me that I now receive you worthily” … I will never forget what happened then … On the way to communion, I suddenly felt such an extreme happiness – like thousands of butterflies in my body – and this still held on as the Holy Mass was finished – I had such a beaming smile on my face and thought constantly, that hopefully no one notices it … when I left the church I had still this feeling of happiness and on the way to the car suddenly I walked like on clouds – that was just about the limit, as if I were walking on air … I am sure that this was so, because the whole heaven was pleased that after 26 years of “sin desert” I finally returned to Jesus.

After these incredible experiences I delved into the faith more and more, because I got a thirst for knowledge about the Catholic faith. I bought many books about saints and the faith and I am very grateful to Sabina that she had with me this conversation and now I know that everything is planned by God – he sent to me this “superman” when I was about to get into the car, so I went still with the Italian restaurant and so I got her to know … even if my “conversion talk” is a few years ago, Sabina and I are still good friends… Start

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